.

holding on to yesterday.
now that you know
will you sit still
and look pretty.

will you
help
help me
make all this easier for me.

i want so much to be happy
so much
to say that i'm happy
for you.

that i've closed this chapter.
the happiest that i've been
only that i didn't show it.

i dream everynight
that you're still here
lying right here
right here
next to me.

i still feel
feel your gentle
comforting
reassuring
i miss you.

will you just
make it easier.

i'm stuck
between now and before.

deep in me
i still pray.