.

i want so much to purge all that i have inside me out.


but i open my heart
all i can say is.


i love you. so much. you wouldn't understand.
i'm so sorry for all thats happened
i take the blame.


i was looking forward to a warm winter with you
and hoping to spend the best years of my life with you
and share everything i know and have.


i love you.


if you ever find it within yourself to forgive me and love me again
i'll be here. waiting.
wiping up the tears that flood around me.