.

do you too?
its so hard to hide the excitment when you're there.
but
why?
having to avoid your face.
to keep it in.
stop the tears from welling up.

no.

not in front of everyone.

but the hearts so weak.
the paint is fading
slowly washed away by all the tears.

the canvas is almost bare.
i can't hide the tears
nor pretend i'm happy.

not as well as i could.

lifes not really okay.
its not really okay.
not really okay.