i never thought that knowing what was right for me could leave me so alone.
so abandoned. as if after everything i've put into to fostering close friendships was just a misjudgement on my part.
or could it be just that, i didn't put in enough to make my friends strong too? that they just weren't pilled in deep enough?
but why stray when we were doing so well? i look at them and they're just strangers to me.
i stand to the side and observe, and distant myself from everything. at the same time making sure no one gets hurt.
seperated. i don't belong anymore.
those few words they said to me, cut me deep. but made me realise. maybe it just isn't my game anymore.
refresh myself. time alone. i need it.
i needed it. step one to recovering from this nightmare.
i just wish i could feel like a princess again. be reminded.
in my fairy tale where the world is just to perfect and pretty.
i bought a couple of clothes while spending time alone today. i couldn't help myself. if only my life could be as perfect and beautiful as my new outfits.
so i bought these...
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